I'm posting not because I'm feeling better.
But because I just had to spill my views out.
You still love me, don't you?
But I really feel that your affection is pouring towards her now.
You said that you two are just FWB.
But to the extend of sending her home all the way to Tanah Merah?
I know I'm not supposed to brood about this whole private conversation.
Just hope that you'll really think about what you are feeling.
I'm not sure if you are loving me more than her or what, from our previous convo at the sofa.
From what I read, I can tell things happened before we broke up.
You met up in November, we broke up in December.
It's fair to say that you've cheated ;)
Anyways, going back to talk about your feelings.
If you're just friends with benefits, you wouldn't have sent her home, worrying about her safety.
You wouldn't have cared what gifts she would give you on Christmas.
You wouldn't have showered all the concern about her daily needs.
But you did.
You did what you have done for me when we were first together.
You showered her with all the affection that you used to do for me.
Did you do it to me out of fun? No.
So I can say that you're not doing it to her out of fun too.
There are emotions and feelings.
You're her first and ultimately she'll want to settle down with you.
I can see that your messages are happy when you're sending it to her.
I can see that you do have likings for this girl.
So I feel that I'm right to say that you're not just friends with benefits.
I know you're still not over me.
I am not over you too.
But you will forget me.
You will forget the pain.
With her around, you'll forget about us.
She'll bring you the happiness and soon it'll just be over about us.
You're not the kind to remember memories when not required.
So the more you'll forget when you have her in your life.
What I've said to you about loving her wholeheartedly, I meant it.
I know no matter what, you won't break up with her because of me.
I have experienced what you've experienced.
What's more, your affection for her is just like how we used to have.
But it all turned cold and sour.
I won't hold on to you.
I can't. You won't allow.
But I won't let you go either.
The hunch I have within is that you love her.
The stronger hunch I have is that you'll come back someday.
I can't tie you down.
I can't force you to break up with her.
I can't force you to love me back.
That's why I decided to let you be.
I still look forward to your messages.
I still feel happy reading your love messages to me.
I still feel happy reading your caring messages to me.
I still look forward to meeting you.
But at the back of my mind, it will be telling me that you're too busy replying her and meeting her.
I still long for you, knowing you're not going to be mine.
Ain't I foolish?
My hopes will still be there for you.
I will still hold on to my faith for you.
Because I believe in you.
And I hope someday you'll find your believe in me.
Loving you always,
Your Mao Mao no more for now.
PREVIOUSLY. / LATEST.
I'm posting not because I'm feeling better.
But because I just had to spill my views out.
You still love me, don't you?
But I really feel that your affection is pouring towards her now.
You said that you two are just FWB.
But to the extend of sending her home all the way to Tanah Merah?
I know I'm not supposed to brood about this whole private conversation.
Just hope that you'll really think about what you are feeling.
I'm not sure if you are loving me more than her or what, from our previous convo at the sofa.
From what I read, I can tell things happened before we broke up.
You met up in November, we broke up in December.
It's fair to say that you've cheated ;)
Anyways, going back to talk about your feelings.
If you're just friends with benefits, you wouldn't have sent her home, worrying about her safety.
You wouldn't have cared what gifts she would give you on Christmas.
You wouldn't have showered all the concern about her daily needs.
But you did.
You did what you have done for me when we were first together.
You showered her with all the affection that you used to do for me.
Did you do it to me out of fun? No.
So I can say that you're not doing it to her out of fun too.
There are emotions and feelings.
You're her first and ultimately she'll want to settle down with you.
I can see that your messages are happy when you're sending it to her.
I can see that you do have likings for this girl.
So I feel that I'm right to say that you're not just friends with benefits.
I know you're still not over me.
I am not over you too.
But you will forget me.
You will forget the pain.
With her around, you'll forget about us.
She'll bring you the happiness and soon it'll just be over about us.
You're not the kind to remember memories when not required.
So the more you'll forget when you have her in your life.
What I've said to you about loving her wholeheartedly, I meant it.
I know no matter what, you won't break up with her because of me.
I have experienced what you've experienced.
What's more, your affection for her is just like how we used to have.
But it all turned cold and sour.
I won't hold on to you.
I can't. You won't allow.
But I won't let you go either.
The hunch I have within is that you love her.
The stronger hunch I have is that you'll come back someday.
I can't tie you down.
I can't force you to break up with her.
I can't force you to love me back.
That's why I decided to let you be.
I still look forward to your messages.
I still feel happy reading your love messages to me.
I still feel happy reading your caring messages to me.
I still look forward to meeting you.
But at the back of my mind, it will be telling me that you're too busy replying her and meeting her.
I still long for you, knowing you're not going to be mine.
Ain't I foolish?
My hopes will still be there for you.
I will still hold on to my faith for you.
Because I believe in you.
And I hope someday you'll find your believe in me.
Loving you always,
Your Mao Mao no more for now.
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