Everytime it feels like God is trying to tell me something...
I kept reading about things that are so related to my situation.
From Luke 2:8-20 (to keep it short),
it's about the shepherds who saw the angel and was in fear.
But the angel came with good news about the birth of baby Jesus.
And the message was about how in a world full of fear,
I need to remember that Jesus came to be the Prince of Peace.
It helped me to calm down my fearful and troubled heart.
But as a human, a fall back into relying on my own again..
Then again I got a reminder...
From Jonah 4,
it's about Jonah's anger at the Lord's compassion.
He was angry but God provided him a leafy shade.
But the next day, God planted a worm that ate the shade.
And God even made it a scorching weather.
And the message was to tell me that as I face different situations,
I should remember God is sovereign over both blessings and the troubles that come my way.
He desires to use everything to build our character.
He uses both good and bad to transform us and guide us on our journey.
It sort of made me think about how horrible I am.
And this was probably to help me reflect on myself.
AND probably to draw me back to him.
But as a human, a fall back into relying on my own again..
Then again I got a reminder...
From Job 2:3-13,
it's about Job being suffering and yet he did not turn away from God.
The message was that God may not intervene to change circumstances,
and He may not explain sufferings, but He still comforts us.
It's true that He's still the only person who can comfort me,
but yet, I'm still struggling with relying on Him.
I guess it's just a major lesson that I need to learn.
But as a human, a fall back into relying on my own again..
Then again I got a reminder...
From Jeremiah 29:4-14,
the people of Judah disobeyed God,
but God sent Jeremiah to tell them that they should increase, instead of diminishing.
The message was saying that although we may face some limiting situations today,
whether it is the result of our own failure, or through no fault of our own,
we can "go" through it or seek God's strength to "grow" through it.
The challenge is to increase than decrease, to grow and not diminish.
And yes, it is a fault of my own and I need to grow but not on my own.
I need to rely on God and seek His strength.
But as a human, a fall back into relying on my own again..
Then again I got a reminder...
From Revelation 21:1-7,
it's about the new heaven and new earth,
where there will be no more pain and suffering.
Even Solomon stated that "in laughter the heart may sorrow".
It is true that in this world, pain exists.
The message was that we have an eternal life,
and that is where God will wipe away every tear from our eyes;
there shall be no more death, nor sorrow, nor crying.
There shall be no more pain, for the former things have passed away.
And in that day, we will no longer have mixed emotions,
but a heart filled with the presence of God.
My emotions are so mixed right now,
it feels like I'm a skitzo (schizophrenia).
Then it felt like I have bipolar disorder.
Not only is my eczema getting worse,
not only are pimples growing from all the stress,
but my inner self is messed up.
It's just like "Bang! This message is what you need!"
But as a human, a fall back into relying on my own again..
Then again I got a reminder...
From Philippians 1:3-14,
Paul stated his thanksgiving and prayer in his letter,
while he was in jail.
When he was thrown in prison for preaching the gospel,
he had an unusually upbeat attitude.
He wasn't depressed, instead he saw it as an opportunity to spread gospel to the Roman guards.
God can use our trials to work good in spite of the pain they bring.
I always see things in a bad way.
I'm a very pessimistic person and no one could stand my pessimism.
It's as though God is telling me that He is going to work on me.
He wants to change me.
And all I need to do is to rely.
(That was today's message)
It's always so difficult for me to rely on people.
But the ultimate lesson I have to learn is to rely on God.
I need to be able to give myself up for Him.
I need to stop steering my own wheel.
It is so painful for me, but I got to rely on Him to help me.
I can't get through this on my own.
I have no one who could help me.
... He's already washed his hands off me.
... She doesn't need more worries to weigh herself down.
... Others just won't understand what I'm going through.
The people I'm closest with can't be around.
At it's really down to God, and I just got to let Him take it.
It's going to be a struggle.
It's not going to be easy.
But I want to try.
I want to learn.
And I don't want to fall back into this state again.
Just so sick of this state, where I'm always getting reminders.
I need to let go.
I have to...
even if it's not for me,
at least it's for him.
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Everytime it feels like God is trying to tell me something...
I kept reading about things that are so related to my situation.
From Luke 2:8-20 (to keep it short),
it's about the shepherds who saw the angel and was in fear.
But the angel came with good news about the birth of baby Jesus.
And the message was about how in a world full of fear,
I need to remember that Jesus came to be the Prince of Peace.
It helped me to calm down my fearful and troubled heart.
But as a human, a fall back into relying on my own again..
Then again I got a reminder...
From Jonah 4,
it's about Jonah's anger at the Lord's compassion.
He was angry but God provided him a leafy shade.
But the next day, God planted a worm that ate the shade.
And God even made it a scorching weather.
And the message was to tell me that as I face different situations,
I should remember God is sovereign over both blessings and the troubles that come my way.
He desires to use everything to build our character.
He uses both good and bad to transform us and guide us on our journey.
It sort of made me think about how horrible I am.
And this was probably to help me reflect on myself.
AND probably to draw me back to him.
But as a human, a fall back into relying on my own again..
Then again I got a reminder...
From Job 2:3-13,
it's about Job being suffering and yet he did not turn away from God.
The message was that God may not intervene to change circumstances,
and He may not explain sufferings, but He still comforts us.
It's true that He's still the only person who can comfort me,
but yet, I'm still struggling with relying on Him.
I guess it's just a major lesson that I need to learn.
But as a human, a fall back into relying on my own again..
Then again I got a reminder...
From Jeremiah 29:4-14,
the people of Judah disobeyed God,
but God sent Jeremiah to tell them that they should increase, instead of diminishing.
The message was saying that although we may face some limiting situations today,
whether it is the result of our own failure, or through no fault of our own,
we can "go" through it or seek God's strength to "grow" through it.
The challenge is to increase than decrease, to grow and not diminish.
And yes, it is a fault of my own and I need to grow but not on my own.
I need to rely on God and seek His strength.
But as a human, a fall back into relying on my own again..
Then again I got a reminder...
From Revelation 21:1-7,
it's about the new heaven and new earth,
where there will be no more pain and suffering.
Even Solomon stated that "in laughter the heart may sorrow".
It is true that in this world, pain exists.
The message was that we have an eternal life,
and that is where God will wipe away every tear from our eyes;
there shall be no more death, nor sorrow, nor crying.
There shall be no more pain, for the former things have passed away.
And in that day, we will no longer have mixed emotions,
but a heart filled with the presence of God.
My emotions are so mixed right now,
it feels like I'm a skitzo (schizophrenia).
Then it felt like I have bipolar disorder.
Not only is my eczema getting worse,
not only are pimples growing from all the stress,
but my inner self is messed up.
It's just like "Bang! This message is what you need!"
But as a human, a fall back into relying on my own again..
Then again I got a reminder...
From Philippians 1:3-14,
Paul stated his thanksgiving and prayer in his letter,
while he was in jail.
When he was thrown in prison for preaching the gospel,
he had an unusually upbeat attitude.
He wasn't depressed, instead he saw it as an opportunity to spread gospel to the Roman guards.
God can use our trials to work good in spite of the pain they bring.
I always see things in a bad way.
I'm a very pessimistic person and no one could stand my pessimism.
It's as though God is telling me that He is going to work on me.
He wants to change me.
And all I need to do is to rely.
(That was today's message)
It's always so difficult for me to rely on people.
But the ultimate lesson I have to learn is to rely on God.
I need to be able to give myself up for Him.
I need to stop steering my own wheel.
It is so painful for me, but I got to rely on Him to help me.
I can't get through this on my own.
I have no one who could help me.
... He's already washed his hands off me.
... She doesn't need more worries to weigh herself down.
... Others just won't understand what I'm going through.
The people I'm closest with can't be around.
At it's really down to God, and I just got to let Him take it.
It's going to be a struggle.
It's not going to be easy.
But I want to try.
I want to learn.
And I don't want to fall back into this state again.
Just so sick of this state, where I'm always getting reminders.
I need to let go.
I have to...
even if it's not for me,
at least it's for him.
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