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I feel so heavily burdened.
Fought with my dear dear yesterday 'cause he said I was wasting his time.
It made him typed a message that's filled with his sadness.
All because of my childish act.
He didn't even want me to see it.

Today, fought with my brother 'cause he was throwing tantrum.
In the end, it seems like I was the one at fault.
I'm the one who wasn't showing a good example for him.
Mummy kept saying that I need to explain things out to him.
She said that my own temper wasn't good as well.
She said that it's not as if I don't know how it's like when I was his age.
Here I am trying so hard to help him, but all that everyone could see was that I'm taking a wrong step.

I feel so alone..
So lonely..
I couldn't tell her I'm not fine with lifting the burden of taking care of my brother.
She insisted on me being honest with her, if I'm alright with her working and if I would blame her.
I just smiled and nodded. It was all a lie.

I called my dear to share with him..
I needed to talk to someone.
But all he said was "Anything else?"
I'm sure he doesn't know that I'm crying on the other side of the phone when he said that.
I'm sure no one knows that I'm even crying now.

I'm so stressed by my studies.
I'm so stressed by my relationship.
I'm so stressed by my family.
But I know I can't just end it.

So God, please ease my pain.........


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