Talking To Me

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Don't ask why you can't see it.

Are you seriously ready for a relationship?

Are you sure you are responsible enough for a relationship?

I know I'm not ready, majority on the emotional side.

But you..

How much do you treasure me I wonder?

Sex. Shower. Eat. Sleep.

I said I needed to pee.

You said you needed to shower.

And you just went ahead while I held my bladder.

Then you went to eat, without telling me.

And there was silly me, waiting.

Only to find out when I went to the toilet.

Before I finished my food, you went to your room.

And I was smart enough to have the itouch with me before you disappear again.

30mins, there was no sign of you.

And I was left in the kitchen all alone.

Went into the room.

Facing 4 walls.

It was 10.50pm, I had to leave because someone just wasn't waking up.

He even became angry when I should be the one.

And I did became angry.

Which boyfriend would throw a girlfriend alone in the house while he sleeps?

Which boyfriend would tell the girlfriend he'll send her back but fails to do so?

Which boyfriend, not only failed to send her back, fail to send her to the bus stop at 11pm?

Which boyfriend, not only failed to send her to the bus stop, didn't even bother to send her to the door?

I was glad when the lift door closed, I didn't want to give you a chance.

I was glad the bus came soon, I didn't want to give you a chance to make it up.

You once told me you would...

Treat me bubble tea from Artease another time...

Eat nice gelato some other time...

Eat Bak Kut Teh at Boon Keng the next time I stay over on a weekend...

Eat at Botak Jones together because it just open...

Pass me your old phone because mine is spoilt...

DID YOU?

When I was coughing out blood, you were gaming.

When I was upset with my mother, you were sleeping.

When I was suffering in pain, you were with your friends.

When your friend/s was/were around, I was left behind.

Do you know how I feel?

I don't feel treasured at all.

If I'm just a stand in for times when you...

have a need to wank off,

have no one to shop with you,

have no one to celebrate Christmas with you,

have no one counting down the year with you,

feel that your bed is very empty...

Then I'd rather not be there.

If I have to make myself scarce to make you treasure me, I would do that.
Well, at times like this, you couldn't even apologize.
Seems like gaming is more important...


It is now 12:36am. 1 hour ago, 11:36pm. Right after I took the bus.

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